Hello everyone....

I have neglected this blog in a big way the last few weeks. I have had some emotional drama I have been dealing with that has not put me in the proper frame of mind to write, and even though I've ventured out and attended a few events, did not bring my camera or feel up for documenting it.

Sorry this is not a fun post, full of pictures of scores or good times and bands. I am just not in the proper frame of mind at the moment. I am excited about a few things these next few months and will be sure to document them.

My emotional drama stems from events in my past. I am 44 years old and feel like I have lived many lifetimes. I am a recovered alcoholic with over 19 years sober. There are still some unresolved issues from when I was drinking, and things from my past I have never resolved. They have been coming up for me this year. It makes me feel raw and makes me unsure of myself and the life I have created for myself. A life that I am very happy with. Those that know me personally, know that I am a very confident person who is at ease with anyone. I have a positive attitude and am the type of person who is not afraid to admit when she is wrong. I respect others, that are like me, and am the type of person who looks for good, not bad. A "glass half full" type of person.

I am not comfortable feeling vulnerable yet I have opened myself up to be that. Please forgive my absence while I am coping with this. I am trying to learn to forgive myself, again, for transgressions I made in my youth.